Faith is amazing! It can be as small as a mustard seed or it can fill the universe. The choice is ours. The reason I say this is because the size of our faith is determined by the size of our God. For many years my faith in God could fit in a thimble, but now it takes a whole universe to hold my God! What made the difference? Time, precious time, and a whole lot of searching for answers in His Word.
“You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart.”
For years I attended church, but the only time I picked up the Bible was to dust it. (I had to dust in order to earn my allowance). I smile now remembering my mama’s words, “Sandy, you must handle the Bible with respect and you must never put it on the floor.” One day as I picked it up, I wondered what would happen if I opened it and read it? Maybe it would help me understand why He supposedly loved me. The only reason I was wondering that was because I heard it in a song. Maybe, if I read His word it would tell me if He did indeed love me. I had high expectations as I opened the Bible and turned the pages ever so carefully! Did I find my answer? No! I hardly made it through Genesis. I decided it was too hard to understand, so I decided I would just trust the song’s words to be true. But, the real problem was I did not have enough faith to believe or trust Him. He was still just a Man in a Book.
“And in the fourth watch of the night He came to them, walking on the sea. When the disciples saw Him walking of the sea, they were terrified, and said, “It is a ghost! And they cried out in fear. But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, “Take courage, it is I; do not be afraid.”
In order to truly believe and trust Him, I needed to see Him walk on water before I wanted to get out of the boat. In fact, I did not even want to step into the water – That water was cold!
So, I decided to try the world’s way. I would take the wide path and not venture onto the narrow path. I just followed the crowd to see where it would take me. In time, I realized it would not take me very far. In actuality, it became a dead end street.
“Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.”
Did I learn my lesson? Yes, indeed I did! I realized if I had values, they thought I was a real stick in the mud and no fun. I also realized when troubles came, the world was too busy to care and they waved as they passed me by.
When storm clouds appear on the horizon and the waves of life come crashing down upon you, your eyes and heart start searching for someone who will not pass you by. Care to guess who that someone is? Yes, it is the One walking on the water, stretching His hand out and beckoning you to come toward Him while the waves are still raging all around.
“Peter said to Him, “Lord, if it is You command me to come to You on the water.” And He said, “Come!” And Peter got out of the boat, and walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But seeing the wind, he became frightened, and beginning to sink, he cried out, “Lord, save me!” Immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and took hold of him, and said to him, “You of little faith, why did you doubt?”
I remember asking the Lord, “if I come to You, would you meet me when the water reaches knee high?” The Lord responded,”No!” “What if it reaches up to my waist? Would that do? “No!” “Lord, can you just throw me a life preserver and pull me to you”? “No!” You have to have the FAITH to believe I am going to rescue you! You will make it, but you must not take your eyes off me.”
So my search for faith began! I was sinking and I had to find out what faith was and how to get it fast!
“Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.”
I wanted the assurance, but my fear and doubts were larger than my conviction. How was I ever going to get enough faith to venture out to meet Him? All I could see were the raging waves.
“So faith comes from hearing, and hearing by the Word of Christ.
Well, there was my answer. I had to learn to walk by faith and not by sight. I had to get in the Word of God and get to know my Lord. This time I would not stop at Genesis. I was not going to put my Bible down until I had the assurance He loved me and cared what happened to me!
“For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not from yourselves; it is the gift of God.”
Indeed it is! Each step I took towards Him, He stepped toward me. Little by little I got to know His character and started feeling His love. The more I trusted Him, the less I feared and doubted. The more time I spent getting to know Him, the more I realized I never wanted to do life without Him. When I showed Him my faith; He showed me His strength. The best part of the story is, He never passed me by and waved. He always stopped and met me where I was at. Never again did I have to ask Him to throw me a life preserver because He was already there in the flesh.
So the next time the storm clouds gather on the horizon and He beckons me to “Come,” I think I will jump into the water with both feet and swim as fast as I can!